I need advice.... My boo, this guy that I really like, i don't know what to do with him. He's been someone I've know for awhile and we never really saw eachother in a romantic sence untill recently. At first it was really wishy washy, he seemed like he wanted to be more than just  "friends" , but then he seemed like all he wanted from me was a warm place to put his cock. And now it's back to he wants to be my man. He makes me so happy and at the same time so mad. When we're together all he dose is hold me, kisses me and cuddles me. I never want to leave him, he's someone I can see myself with, but I don't know if he feels the same way. I try to talk to him about how he see "us" and all he says is that he dosen't want to talk about and kisses me, or says he knows what he wants and then just changes the subject. It's like one day he get's mad if a guy calls me and then the next day he could give two shits less who the fuck calls me, or one day he calls me and wants me to come over and spend the night, then the next day or two he wont call me at all. I just need to know what i should do with him.

Hey yall,

                It's been a few sence I've bloged, I've just been so damn busy with work, friends, home, and family. I'm still trying to get all of my ducks in a row, whatever the fuck that means. I think I've loosened up alot about alot of things or maybe I just stopped caring, but whatever happened it feels good. I don't really care that my roomate spends all of her time with her asshole of a boyfriend anymore, just as long as she is happy. And the whole not having a man is all good because hella guys have been hollerin hard as hell, and I'm just enjoying my womanhood. Hell yeah! Well with all these guys tryin to talk to me, there still is this one guy that I want to be into me, but he's not! What a fucker man?!? It's ok, he'll come around. OH I just went to a strip club for the first time with my good friend, whos name we will keep confindential, by her request... ne ways it was a really good experience. You know I think if I lose some weight I might have to try stripping! It looks kinda fun. I'm just livin, lovin and havin fun.